As it is the summer time and everyone is talking about holidays, I thought it might be a nice theme for this week's blog. Especially as we are preparing to go away ourselves this month, with Amy's family, to Portugal.
However, this does bring with it the natural worries, and anxieties, not only because it will be the first time I have been away to another country with my girlfriend's family, but it will be the first time I will be flying since my bleed.
We were so worried about it, about four months' ago we spoke to a specialist neurological doctor and quizzed him extensively about all of the risks and potential dangers.
They, of course, said there was nothing to worry about, but it is only human, after all, to be naturally concerned, after everything that has happened.
The main worry we have is the effect of the air pressure on my skull, and brain, and if anything will happen, particularly when taking off, or landing.
I am probably over thinking it, as usual, but after all that has happened, it is only natural to be a tiny bit concerned.
Traveling is not new to me, as in my twenties, which seems a long time ago now, I flew to Australia by myself. I also got lost in Sweden overnight and slept in a field. That is a long story, which maybe I'll share in another blog one day, but it does feel like a lifetime ago. It is strange to think I am the same person who did all of those things and now I am worrying about a tiny two-hour flight with my girlfriend and her family. My hopes are, as soon as we are there and everything goes well both Amy and I can breath a sigh of relief and hopefully catch the traveling bug once more.
Traveling, in particular, flying, with a brain injury, and under the diagnosis of epilepsy, is a lot harder than being a fully healthy young guy, if I can call myself young anymore at 31! We have had to think much harder about getting insurance and making sure everything is covered. Preparing my medication and making sure we have them was important.
Mostly though, both Amy and I are battling our own thoughts and trying to stop our imaginations running away from us. This is the biggest obstacle, not necessarily anything real, but the possible situations and outcomes our minds are making up.
I have come through so many firsts since my bleed occurred; first steps, first day back at work, and this will be another big one. Myself, and Amy in particular, will be mightily relieved when each plane touches down safely on the runway, at either end of the journey.
Holidays bring about enough anxiety and worries as it is, such as flying, transfers, currency exchange, etc, but, for me, they are tremendously worrying now after everything to have happened, and because it is the first time I have done it since my bleed.
I hope you are all having a good summer and enjoy your holidays!
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