Sport is a massive passion of mine, as a sports journalist, and it has been possible to catch up on the important moments of the last year and a half by reading articles or watching DVDs such as Andy Murray's Wimbledon win dvd I have. However, even though it was only a few months ago, I still have no idea who won the recent football World Cup, which annoys, and scares me, as these events go down in the annals of time, forever unchangeable.
I would not want to sound silly by attempting to guess, and subsequently, get wrong, who are the current champions of England, and Europe, in football and rugby. The point is though I can look on my phone or ask my friends and I can quickly fill in my missing gaps.
What are not so easy to catch up on are the events in the lives of the people close to me.
There are no DVDs, or highlights to watch. The best way I can describe it is: it is like I have just taken a giant step sideways and the world has continued to turn while nearly two years of massive moments have taken place, all without me. Fast forward, to now, and I simply slot back in again, as if nothing has happened, like something out of a sci-fi film.
Firstly, my two nieces; Chloe and Alice, are older and I have missed all their shenanigans, birthdays and growing up; for example, I genuinely cannot place their ages, as I've lost nearly two years of their young lives, which I personally find quite sad, my guess is five and three, but I wouldn't be surprised if I was wrong; I hope my brother, Mat, and sister-in-law, Lisa, do not take offence, but if it helps; I struggle to remember the morning of each day, or what I had for breakfast.
This inevitably makes me think about my future, more importantly, my hopes of becoming a dad. I want to be the best I can within my limitations but I am also sad about all the amazing moments I may miss due to my memory. Hopefully, by then we will have more personal strategies to help me remember all those special moments.
While I am talking about my sister-in-law, Lisa, she started a new job/career as an assessor for Learn Direct, which is another massive life event I would love to have seen and heard all about, as well as give her as much of my support as possible. .
Some work colleagues/friends have started new jobs, where, under normal circumstances, I would be the first person to say: "congratulations" or "good luck." My two best mates in journalism, ironically both called Nick, former Citizen rugby writer, Nick Purewal, and someone I trained with, Nick Mashiter, have both been rewarded for their hard work and talent, by getting jobs for the Press Association, fully deserved rewards for the pair of them and I could not be happier for them. When I fell ill, one of my colleagues had one child now suddenly they have three!
I have missed out on my friends getting new partners or girlfriends, so I often put my foot in it when asking things such as: "how's the mrs?" "We broke up Will." Silence.
So let me apologise for offending anyone when enquiring, but I've been pretty lucky with people understanding memory problems, which again, says a lot about the people close to me.
I feel as though I have missed a lot of big moments in my friends' lives: weddings, house warmings, important events I would have, before my bleed, known all about and, dare I say, be able to help in some way.
This is another side of my injury, which makes me sad; missing out on giving, those closest to me, my full support.
I've been extremely fortunate in my life; I've always had incredible relationships with my parents, which, I believe, says more about how fantastic they are, rather than anything about me. They have always been there for me through anything; from break ups, to beers, to my current plight.
Amy has become a keen photographer, capturing precious moments, hopefully jogging my memory when this all gets me down. Keeping a running visual record of our relationship and lives as an external memory drive. She also holds a lot, I mean a lot, of information in her head so I can call on her a lot of the time for information.
My hopes are high that I will in time remember the important stuff but until then expect a few repeating questions!