Now this is not one of the world's continents before Amy and I break out into another round of our favourite car game called "City or Country."
You will perhaps have seen from previous blogs my family and I have picked up quite a bit of medical knowledge - it is certainly no surprise three members of Amy's family are currently enjoying or are training for a career in medicine.
I would not attempt to try and define what Aphasia is so I thought I would leave to the fantastic folk at Headway - the national brain injury charity - who have helped us so much throughout my recovery.
Language Impairment (aphasia)
"Injury to language centres of the brain leads to a condition called aphasia. There are different levels of impairment and the term dysphasia refers to partial loss of language."
Now what this basically means is, sometimes, I just cannot say or pronounce the word I am trying to search for. Perhaps a better way to describe it - because it is quite hard to describe - is you are happily just talking along, banging on about something boring - usually sport - and all of a sudden you just stop talking, because you cannot find a certain word and draw an uncomfortable blank.
I can think of so many words around the word I want to say. I can remember words associated with it but annoyingly just cannot think of THE word.
This may not sound like the worst thing in the world - and I know that - but I guess seeing as I have worked as a journalist for the last ten years of my life, it absolutely petrifies me that suddenly I will not be able to find a word. It sounds so simple doesn't it? "Just say the word" you scream at yourself internally. But it is not as simple as that, which, again, just goes to show how complicated or incredible the human brain is - making the most simplest of tasks suddenly seem so difficult.
I have cringed at the sight or sound of myself on screen - when Amy and I have been messing around filming things, or I am listening back to an interview I have recorded on my dictaphone for work - and it is cringeworthy, believe me.
I think I must annoy Amy at times because I continually have to say ‘What’s the word?’ ‘Is that the right word?’ I’m constantly questioning the words running from my mouth.
The only real advice I can give is that knowledge is power. I like knowing this is a side effect of my brain injury. I know this is a direct result of the damage to my brain. Although it doesn’t offer much comfort it does give a reason, a reason I cannot control. It is something you learn to live with and maybe one day will grow to love! You never know!
Thanks for reading.