I have a sneaky confession to make, a couple of weeks ago I wrote a blog about holidays, well last week we were actually in Portugal with Amy's family - surprise!
We were a tad concerned about going away, especially with the flying and all of the air pressure. But it turned out to be absolutely fine, there were no scary repercussions, just like the doctor we consulted had told us, but it is better to be safe than sorry.
I don't really know what I was expecting to be honest with you: perhaps something out of the 1981 David Cronenberg film: "Scanners" where people with telekinetic powers could make other people's heads explode. That may be a touch melodramatic but you cannot help but worry about these things, or certainly imagine the worst. As my father once said to me: "expect the worst and you'll never be disappointed." Like me, he has an odd sense of humour.
I'm sure Amy won't mind me saying this, but I reckon she was perhaps more worried about it all than me. As I have mentioned before, she has shielded me from a lot of the main consequences of my bleed, we often joke about the fact she is the oldest of three siblings and I am the youngest of three. So we fit together perfectly like two jigsaw puzzle pieces. This means one of the attributes she possesses is she is used to looking after, and out for, other people in her life i.e. her younger brother and sister. It is just a shame she has to look out for me so much, her older boyfriend. But at least it means she has had plenty of practice at it.
To stop me becoming too tired and help manage my fatigue levels while on holiday, we tried to keep to a similar routine to that of our normal one at home. Thankfully Amy's family love a routine as well, everyday we had a morning activity, then back for lunch, then an afternoon activity. This meant I could plan resting periods into the day and made sure I didn't miss anything too important. It does in a way take away the spontaneity but it means I can enjoy as much as possible.
Luckily this was not the first time I had been on holiday with Amy's family, as we have been to Woolacombe, on the North Devon coast, so I did not have to deal with any nerves or concerns about that.
But just like Amy, her family were absolutely brilliant, I always worry about the burden and extra responsibility, or pressure, my injury has placed on those closest to me.
But as I say, just like Amy, they were brilliant, and incredibly supportive, just like they have been since day one. I often worry my injury places a slight dark cloud, or dampener, on those around me, especially when you are away enjoying yourself on holiday. If it did, they certainly showed no sign of it.
This trip pushed Amy and I literally thousands of miles out of our carefully constructed comfort zone but I am so glad we took the leap. I feel like the world has opened up to me again and I am more confident about a future without so many limitations and many more adventures.